able to make head against illness, which the natural activity and impatience of my Mind renders more dangerous. It will at all events be a very tedious affair, and you must expect to hear very little alteration of any sort in me for some time. You ought to have received a copy of my Book ten days ago I shall send another message to the Booksellers. One of the Mr Wylies will be here to day or to morrow when I will ask him to send you George's Letter. Writing the smallest note is so an〈n〉oying to me that I have waited till I shall see him. Mr Hunt does every thing in his power to make the time pass as agreeably with me as possible. I read the greatest part of the day, and generally take two half hour walks a day up and down the terrace which is very much pester'd with cries, ballad singers, and street music. We have been so unfortunate for so long a time, every event has been of so depressing a nature that I must persuade myself to think some change will take place in the aspect of our affairs. I shall be upon the look out for a trump card.
Brother, John --
Address: Mrs Brawne--
My dearest Fanny,
My head is puzzled this morning, and I scarce know what I shall say though I am full of a hundred things. 'Tis certain I would rather be writing to you this morning, notwithstanding the alloy of grief in such an occupation, than enjoy any other pleasure, with health to boot, unconnected with you. Upon my soul I have loved you to the extreme. I wish you could know the Tenderness with which I continually brood over your different aspects of countenance, action and dress. I see you come down in the morning: I see you meet me at the Window--I see every thing over again eternally that I ever have seen. If I get on the pleasant clue I live in a sort of happy misery, if on the unpleasant 'tis miserable misery. You complain of my illtreating you in word thought and deed--I am sorry,--at times I feel bitterly sorry that I ever made you unhappy--my excuse is that those words have been wrung
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Publication information: Book title: The Letters of John Keats. Edition: 2nd Rev.. Contributors: Maurice Buxton Forman - Editor, John Keats - Author. Publisher: Oxford University Press. Place of publication: New York. Publication year: 1935. Page number: 499.