Now, while Grushenka, rushing to embrace her new fife, was bidding farewell to Dmitry Fyodorovich, enjoining him to remember for ever the one hour during which she had loved him, Dmitry Fyodorovich himself, knowing nothing of what had befallen her, was burdened with cares and in a terrible state of confusion. Ms mental state had been so extreme during these past two days that he really could have developed inflammation of the brain, as he himself said later. Alyosha had not been able to find him the previous morning, nor had his brother Ivan been able to arrange a meeting with him in the tavern. The couple who owned the rooms where he was lodging had, on his orders, refused to reveal his whereabouts. He himself had been nothing short of frantic for the last few days, 'struggling with my soul and trying to find my own salvation', as he himself admitted later, and despite the fact that he was afraid to go away even for a minute in case he missed Grushenka, he had actually left town for a few hours on an urgent matter. All this subsequently came to fight in the most detailed and official manner, but we shall now record only the main events of the two dreadful days preceding the frightful catastrophe which was to engulf him so unexpectedly.
Although it was true that Grushenka had loved him genuinely and sincerely for that one hour, she had also managed to torture him cruelly and mercilessly at the same time. The fact of the matter was that he could not fathom any of her intentions-- there was no possibility of coaxing them out of her with kindness, nor of forcing her to reveal them--she would never have given in, but would have rounded on him and rejected him altogether; that he fully realized. At the time he had reason to suspect that
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Publication information: Book title: The Karamazov Brothers. Contributors: Fyodor Dostoevsky - Author, Ignat Avsey - Translator. Publisher: Oxford University Press. Place of publication: New York. Publication year: 1994. Page number: 459.