in her manœuvres. It is obviously, therefore, my interest to
disappoint them both, as far as I am concerned, by preserving
a cheerful, undisturbed serenity throughout; and, accord-
ingly, I endeavour to show the fullest confidence in my
husband, and the greatest indifference to the arts of my
attractive guest. I have never reproached the former but
once, and that was for laughing at Lord Lowborough's de-
pressed and anxious countenance one evening, when they
had both been particularly provoking; and then, indeed, I
said a good deal on the subject, and rebuked him sternly
enough; but he only laughed, and said,--'You can feel for
him, Helen, can't you?'

'I can feel for anyone that is unjustly treated,' I replied,
'and I can feel for those that injure them too.'

'Why, Helen, you are as jealous as he is!' cried he,
laughing still more; and I found it impossible to convince
him of his mistake. So, from that time, I have carefully
refrained from any notice of the subject whatever, and left
Lord Lowborough to take care of himself. He either has
not the sense or the power to follow my example, though he
does try to conceal his uneasiness as well as he can; but
still, it will appear in his face, and his ill-humour will peep
out at intervals, though not in the expression of open resent-
ment--they never go far enough for that. But I confess I
do feel jealous at times, most painfully, bitterly so; when
she sings and plays to him, and he hangs over the instru-
ment, and dwells upon her voice with no affected interest;
for then I know he is really delighted, and I have no power
to awaken similar fervour. I can amuse and please him with
my simple songs, but not delight him thus.

28th.--Yesterday, we all went to the Grove, Mr.
Hargrave's much-neglected home. His mother frequently
asks us over, that she may have the pleasure of her dear
Walter's company; and this time she had invited us to a
dinner-party, and got together as many of the country gentry
as were within reach to meet us. The entertainment was
very well got up; but I could not help thinking about the

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