she knew, was familiar with it all--had travelled step
by step over ther oad before her--yet, she realised
that she found no help in Gerty, nor in any other
human being--for was it not ordained in the beginning
that every man must come at last into the knowledge
of the spirit only through the confirming agony
of flesh?

"No, I am not happy now because he is not utterly
and entirely mine," she thought, "there are only a
few hours of the day when he is with me--all the
rest of the twenty-four he leads a life of which I
know nothing, which I cannot even follow in my
thoughts. Whom does he see in those hours? and of
what does he think when I am not with him? Next
week in the Adirondacks we shall be together without
interruption, and then I shall discern his real and
hidden self--then I shall understand him as fully
as I wish to be understood." And that coming
month appeared to her suddenly as luminous with
happiness. Here, now, she was dissatisfied and
incapable of rest, but just six days ahead of her
she saw the beginning of unspeakable joy. An im-
patient eagerness ran through her like a flame and
she began immediately the preparations for her
visit.

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