I AM MARILYN; Scots-Born Singer Sherrie Knew There Was Something Very Different about Her as She Grew Up. Now She Believes She Knows Why .. She Is the Reincarnation of the Fifties Sex Symbol. A New Book Explores This Amazing Tale

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Byline: By Samantha Booth

SCOTS singer Sherrie Lea Laird thinks that John F. Kennedy was a selfish lover. She also reckons if Bobby Kennedy hadn't been shot he would have changed the world.

And she believes that Marilyn Monroe did take her own life but bitterly regretted it even as she lay dying.

How does she know?

Because the 44-year-old mum thinks she is the reincarnation of the Fifties icon.

Sherrie said: "I never wanted this to happen to me. I am not a Marilyn fan and I am so much prouder of Sherrie than I am of Marilyn, but I feel there is no doubting I am the reincarnation of Marilyn Monroe."

Sherrie was born exactly nine months after the legendary actress and singer died in 1962.

When she was five her parents emigrated from Edinburgh to Toronto and it was then Sherrie remembers first experiencing the strange feelings that were to become a familiar part of her life.

She said: "I started to get the feeling I was more of a woman than a child and I found I was attracted to much older men, especially those who wore suits. I knew that wasn't right.

"I also got crushing chest pains and had disgusting, vile feelings of shame and remorse.

"I was only a child so didn't understand and just thought I felt like that because I'd been naughty. It was only when I started working on regression with my doctor I realised all that time I had actually been reliving Marilyn's death experience.

"Each episode would last for about 20 minutes and was both frightening and incredibly painful. I could also feel just how much Marilyn regretted it."

Sherrie also remembers when she was 11 hearing her aunt sing a Monroe song and having the sense she already knew it.

As she grew older she began to have flashbacks to the Fifties, including one where she was sitting really close to Frank Sinatra in a club as he performed. But it wasn't until she was in her early 20s she began to think she might actually be the reincarnation of the Hollywood icon.

Sherrie said: "I didn't know much about Marilyn at all. The only thing I'd ever seen her in was Some Like it Hot. But every time I heard her name it screamed out to me until I finally thought: 'That's it. I am her. That's why I'm being driven crazy with all these feelings.' "

Over the next 10 years Sherrie did her best to ignore Marilyn's regular intrusions into her life and concentrate on her music, even though the familiar death pains kept returning and the flashbacks continued, including some of Arthur Miller whom Sherrie believes was Marilyn's great love.

She said: "When I first saw Arthur's face I was overwhelmed with a feeling of love and yet, as Sherrie, I thought: 'How can I feel like this? He is not my type. I like rougher men with goatees.' Yet I knew I loved him.

"In fact, I am sure he was Marilyn's big love. Joe DiMaggio was a great friend but he emotionally betrayed her by getting so angry and jealous. I know how small he used to make her feel and I know he slapped her.

"She did worship JFK because he was such a powerful guy but he became such a selfish lover and a real user. Bobby, on the other hand, was fabulous and, as Sherrie, I liked him much better."

But, like Marilyn, in her early 30s Sherrie began to feel suicidal and, following in the movie star's footsteps, she twice attempted to take her own life by overdosing on pills.

Things got so bad that when she was 35, the same age at which Marilyn died, Sherrie knew she had to get help.

She said: "I couldn't understand why I, Sherrie, this good Scottish girl with the music career and loving family, who was having so much fun, kept feeling like I wanted to end it all. …