A Sudanese Lost Boy Looks Back

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Byline: John Weisman, SPECIAL TO THE WASHINGTON TIMES

I was born, Emmanuel Jal writes in War Child, his powerful, brutal and ultimately uplifting memoir, in a land without books and writing, a land where history was carried on your mother's tongue and in the songs of your village, a land swallowed up by war even as I uttered my first cry. Mr. Jal, who dates his birth to Jan. 1, 1980, is one of Sudan's Lost Boys, preteens who were recruited out of villages and refugee camps to become Jesh a mer - child soldiers.

The Jesh were used as cannon fodder by the Sudanese People's Liberation Army (SPLA) in its fight against the Sudanese army and the Arab Murahaleen, who hated the black and often Christian indigenous Dinka and Nuer tribes of South Sudan.

When Mr. Jal became a Jesh, he was almost as tall as an AK-47. His father was an SPLA commander. By the age of 7, he had watched as his aunt was raped by an Arab soldier, had seen his Christian mother and grandmother beaten by Arabs and had known the violence of being on the losing side of a brutal civil war.

I remember, he writes, walking into one village where bones covered the ground. Some were small and some were large, and Mamma couldn't cover our eyes that day - there was too much to see. Tears ran down people's faces as they cried without sound, and I had many bad dreams afterward.

Mr. Jal's prose is at once mesmerizing and terrifying. It's mesmerizing because of the way he accepts the total brutality of his existence. We crouched for hours at a time learning how to stay still, or being kicked in the head by the [trainers] if we raised our legs too high as we crawled along the ground. ... If boys bled, vomited, fainted, or fell, they were left behind Mr. Jal was 9 years old at that point.

Mr. Jal's prose is terrifying because of the way he writes: in an understated monotone, looking at life through dead eyes. Death was everything here while the living went unnoticed. I wondered if any of the bodies still had life in them, if any of our soldiers lying on the ground were trying to whisper for help. I knew not if everyone hit by a bullet died. Maybe someone was lying close to me as the life ebbed out of them and I turned my back to walk farther into the forest. Mr. Jal was then 12 years old.

Two epiphanies saved him. The first came during a long forced march. There was no food. The boys were forced to use corpses to bait hyenas so they could kill the scavengers and eat their flesh. One of the soldiers, known as the magician, turns to cannibalism. As Mr. Jal's friend Lual is dying, I lowered my head and pushed my nose into the crook of Lual's arm. …