Magazine article The Advocate (The national gay & lesbian newsmagazine)

Outspoken

Magazine article The Advocate (The national gay & lesbian newsmagazine)

Outspoken

Article excerpt

For a long time I've been active in the cause of fighting HIV. rye also battled with an addiction to crystal. These things have brought me to where I am today.

In high school I was part of the first gay-straight alliance in the Tacoma, Wash., school district. This brought me a lot of negative attention. I was beat up daily. Ultimately I dropped out of school and picked up drugs. I was high most of the time, hanging out with dealers, trading sex for drugs. I always asked them to use condoms, but when you're high, who knows what's going on?

A little over a year ago, at 21, I signed up for an HIV vaccine trial. I'd been tested three times in just a couple of months, and they all came back negative. So I was shocked at my second appointment when I was told I couldn't be used because my blood test came back positive. I freaked out. I was crying so hard, I couldn't see my own hand in front of me. When I got home my mom could see how upset I was. I told her what I had found out. She said how sorry she was and asked me for a hug, but I wouldn't let her. I couldn't believe I had let this happen and thought ill couldn't love myself enough to prevent this, then how could she possibly want to hug me? …

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