Magazine article The Exceptional Parent

Still My Boy

Magazine article The Exceptional Parent

Still My Boy

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I hear Justin's bus before I see it, motor revving loudly from a block away so I have time to get up from my curb and wait at the end of the driveway I've been away for two days and am anticipating this homecoming, am usually greeted by effusive hugs and kisses upon any lengthy absence. As I move closer to the bus door however, I hear his unmistakeable unhappy sounds, the "protest whine" that means something is not right with my boy's world.

He advances to the top of the step still uttering his displeasure, staring behind him perhaps at whatever made him sad. He is most of the way down the stairs before he sees me, and he halts mid-step just to take me in. A huge grin envelopes his face, and as he takes that last step down to be at my level he tilts his head up for a kiss, his intense gaze a focus that will not be broken.

He quickly takes my hand pulling me to the front door, and as I thank his driver and aides I hear him resume his sounds of displeasure. Our moment is gone, but I know I'll carry that look with me as I've done so many days before.

Justin and I have always been close. I was the parent he spent the most time with when he was young, and most of the time when he was at odds with the world. I was the only one who could calm him. We were so connected, his gaze following me everywhere in his early days. In fact, it was that intense stare that made me think initially that his pediatrician was right, that autism was not on the table, that he truly was just developmentally delayed and taking after many of the men on both sides of his family tree. …

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