AS a teenager I felt very unloved. There seemed to be many reasons
for this. I was told-often-that I wasn't pretty enough, or thin
enough, to get a boyfriend. Well, I was desperate to change
things. I followed the advice of television advertisements and
magazine articles on how to be popular. I bought and used the
soaps, creams, shampoos, and toothpastes that were supposed to
result in instant popularity. I dieted, I worked out-I even
considered plastic surgery, though I never went through with it.
None of my efforts had any long-term effect. The harder I worked
on myself, the more problems I found. It seemed as if no amount of
money would fix what was wrong.
What a relief it was to find out that there was a better way-an
effective way-to find the love I craved.
The first thing I needed to do was to find out what love is. Many
people feel that love is abstract-so abstract that they do not know
what it is or what it should be. We tend to think that love is
just a good feeling that one human being brings to another. That
would mean that to have love you first have to find someone to love
you. I felt as if I'd done everything and still failed to find
that "someone." I didn't want to keep waiting-and filling the time
with fantasies and chocolates-so I began to pray.
I found out that I was already loved-by God! I didn't have to
search for an elusive "someone" to love me; God's love was already
pouring out on me. But it's more than that. God doesn't just love
us; He is Love, divine Love. Mary Baker Eddy, who discovered
Christian Science, points out in her book Science and Health with
Key to the Scrip-tures: "Spirit, Life, Truth, Love, com-bine as
one,-and are the Scriptural names for God. All substance,
intelligence, wisdom, being, immortality, cause, and effect belong
to God. These are His attributes, the eternal manifestations of
the infinite divine Principle, Love" (p. 275). Since God is good
and only good, His love brings freedom, joy, companionship, trust,
honesty, purity, harmony, integrity. …