Amy Begel, MSW, and David V. Keith, MD
'Twas brillig, and the slithy toves Did gyre and gimble in the wabe; All mimsy were the borogoves, And the mome raths outgrabe.
Lewis Carroll, Alice's Adventures in Wonderland
The “jazz consultation”, or the use of jazz musicians as consultants to family therapy sessions, began because of my [A.B.] * boredom. Actually, it was more a restlessness each time I attended a family therapy conference, and the format was typically the same: presenter, videotape of a family therapy session, comments, comments on comments. There was a yearning I could not quite articulate. Of course, part of me was envious that I didn't feel “expert” enough to show my work so confidently to large numbers of people. Was my discontent valid or was I simply jealous of my professional brothers and sisters? I love to feel confident of what I know, like I have a
*This essay is performed in the first person by Amy Begel. David Keith is her sideman.