enuyeuse' you talk of be assured is nothing but the intense searching of a glorious spirit; & the dissappointment it feels at its first contact with the muddy world--but it will go off--& bye & bye you will shine through it with 'fresh A〈r〉gent'1 --dont let it injure your health, for two years I felt that agony--
Write me before that I may be home when you come.
God bless you my dear Keats
B. R. Haydon.
Address: B R Haydon, Esqr ∣ Lisson Grove North ∣ Paddington.
Postmark: HAMPSTEAD: dated postmark illegible.
My dear Haydon,
My throat has not suffered me yet to expose myself to the night air: however I have been to town in the day time--have had several interviews with my guardian-- have written him a rather plain spoken Letter--which has had its effect; and he now seems inclined to put no stumbling block in my way: so that I see a good prospect of performing my promise. What I should have lent you ere this if I could have got it, was belonging to poor Tom --and the difficulty is whether I am to inherit it before my Sister is of age; a period of six years--Should it be so I must incontinently take to Corderoy Trowsers. But I am nearly confident 'tis all a Bam2--I shall see you soon--but do let me have a line to day or tomorrow concerning your health and spirits
Your sincere friend
110. This undated letter is assigned to January 1819 by reason of the subject. The letter from Haydon which follows it seems to be the reply. Haydon's date is possibly a mistake for Saturday, the 23rd of January; the only Saturday in 1819 falling on the 21st was in August when Keats was in the Isle of Wight and at Winchester.