Jean was dressed entirely in black the day of the interview, from her black leather boots to her black jeans and black t-shirt (with a heavy metal logo on it). She was slim and well groomed, and her complexion was pale, contrasting sharply with her black clothes and her dark hair. This was not unusual dress for her; in fact, she said she wore all black all the time. "It's always been my favorite color," she explained. "Most of my wardrobe has been black for four years."
Many metalheads frequently wear black t-shirts with logos from heavy metal bands, but to wear black from head to toe, every day, carries the motif one step further. Black is the color of mourning, and Jean seemed depressed, as if in mourning for her younger hopes of what the world would be like or what her life would be like. She seemed to have withdrawn from the world to a large extent, and now kept only the most tenuous and superficial ties to others. "I'm not a very social person," she said. "I have a hard time expressing myself."
Her social isolation came up with regard to several different topics, including school, friends, and family. A sophomore in college, she usually kept to herself at school. "It's not a social place for me, really, as much as it is for a lot of people. You can tell when you meet somebody if they're going to be a compatible person to talk to. I don't find very many people like that, at least not in my classes." Even in her relationships with friends she tended to keep them at arm's length emotionally. When unhappy or upset she tended to push them away rather than confide in them. "I withdraw completely," she said. "That's the last time I want to talk about anything. Even if they come out and ask me, I'll only say what I'm comfortable with, or I'll just shut them off completely and just say 'I'm sorry, I really don't want to talk about it.'" She found it safer to keep her feelings inside and not let anyone know too much. "I suppose if you put all my friends together and they put their two bits about me together, they'd have a decent part of