the little experience I have had, my Dear Aunt, has taught me not to look for happiness in this world - on the contrary I must acknowledge myself sometimes deprest at the task that is before me, but I endeavor to banish every murmering reflection & trust to the Providence that has hitherto conducted me through life, for assistance in the discharge of duties which his will has evidently lain on me. 1
Df. Courtesy of Forest Lawn Memorial - Park and Mortuary, Glendale, California.
My Dear Fanny Philadelphia July the 14th 1794
The President arrived hear on monday a good deal fatagued with his ride - I fear he got some cold, it rained all day on satterday and he rode in the rain and was wet 1 I dont think he is better now than he was when he come home,- I very much fear that it will be a troublesom complaint to him for some time or perhaps as long as he lives he will feel it at times
I am glad to hear that you and the children are well - it would have given me a great deal of pleasure to have been with you if I could - I have noe prospect at this time of seeing you this fall - if the President is not a good deal better he could not undertake so long a journey -
I received your silk - and the shoes - which Mr Palmer has got to make - but said he could not get them done till a fort night - as soon as they are done and an oppertunity offers by water - I will send them your silk I will get dyed as soon as it can be done and send them altogether - if they can be done soon - I dont recolect wheather I put the needles that I worked the cross stitch with in the bag with the chare covers if they are not I dont know whare to derect you to find them - if they are to be found I beg you to send them to me in a letter will be as ready as any way - I dont believe any needles of the kind is to be got hear and I shall want them - I intend to set about my chear and get them done if these that are worked is good for any thing I shall soon have them done -
I am glad to find that the President is so well plased with Mr Peares management he will not I hope be so anxious about his plantation Business as he has confidence in Mr Pears - I am sorry to hear that his daughter is so ill - from the account I hear of her there can be no hope that she can ever recover - and when that is the case it must be a releaf to her and her friends when it is plase god to take her -
I am pleased with your putting out such things as is necessary for the use of the House - and should like that Mr Pearse should have