Note added at top of first page of composite letter: "If you do come by Lisbon--stay at Hotel Avez--AVEZ--and ask to see the asst. manager, Mr. Armada-- who speaks excellent English--a friend of Pascal's. Take his advice. --Carry plenty of money--preferably in a money belt. You can carry excess baggage on the plane if you pay for it. If the Avez is full ask Armada where to go. Don't stay in the Avenito [illegible].
April 26, 1
It's so hard to write when one doesn't know how soon the letter will go or when it will be delivered. Such a barrier has been raised that one feels really cut off. That broadcast to America which I made last night I did largely because I hoped you might be able to tune in on the short-wave, and we could have at least a one-way conversation. But things go so slowly I'm not even sure you got my cable about the broadcast and not at all sure your short-wave set could pick the thing up even if you knew about it. If you did hear it you caught up on a lot of my activities which would take a long time to describe, like the visit to the bomber station, the waiting around for messages, the attitude of London civilians and all that. --The letter I sent over to Victor last Monday may have got off to you promptly--and you may get it soon--maybe it will take weeks or months, for the censor may find things in it to blot out. Anyway I'll start as near as I can where I left off. My diary, which I've kept so far, is a great help--if I didn't have it everything would be blurred. And, darling, please be patient with me if I tell dull things--I begin to feel the way all the men over here seem to--that I just must get into some kind of personal touch with home --that I can't say anything very real because it's so far--and yet I must let you know how I get along. Well--that's not very clear. I'm just so baffled with this wall of silence between us it gets to be a pain.
Well, anyway--in my last letter I must have said something about